My nervousness gone within minute..

         Alhamdulillah.. Finally my TOEFL's mark has been know.. Syukur alhamdulillah. Perhaps my score is not that high than some people, but I am extremely happy right now for the mark is higher than what I expected (the one I told people  and lower than what I expected in the heart without telling anyone). However this is far better than enough.

          At first I was very nervous when my beloved room mate told me that the score for TOEFL already out. My heart was like "thump thump" expecting the worst. And within a minute after I signed in to that particular website all my nervousness gone without me knowing where. Again, Alhamdulillah as I obtain score 87/120.

          How much I put my effort for this test cannot be judged from my score as my effort much lower than that. Allah the Most Generous and the Most Compassionate has given the opportunity for me to obtain such a mark. It is true when we say that what we get all this time is not for our effort but it is because of HIS kindness and generosity towards HIS servants. That is why we can't be arrogant with intelligence, wealth, and any possessions that we have right now or in the future.

          This might be a test for me. The loyalty test. Am I going to be grateful with what I get? Am I going to keep praying and stay close to HIM like I did before the test till yesterday? Only I can answer the questions. May I answer it correctly. InsyaAllah. ^^

Test	Test Date	Reading	Listening	Speaking	Writing	Total
TELXML	Sun Nov 18 08:59:38 EST 2012	22	23	20	22	87

(my full score ..alhamdulillah^^)

~ today fell asleep in Chemistry class for the entire time..haila~

GOOD??

I just finished reading 'Versus- Hlovate' this evening. One of my favorite novels. And Hlovate is my favorite novelist. His/her touch is just so different from other novelist.

Every time I come home, I  will read this novel (if I have any free time).

This novel gives so many lessons about life. It just meaningful in its own way. It talks about the versus within ourselves. The versus between the good and devil. A story about people who want to change for good. And the changes they made come with sacrifices. It just not easy as what people thought. If it is that easy, there must be a lot of good people outside there.

And I would like to share the definition of 'good' from what I read from the novel. The  definition of good is always define according to the culture we are in. in Malaysia, people always define 'good Islam girl' as a girl who wear long sleeve t-shirt, loose trousers, wear hijab (which cover their chests), and wear socks. And I agree to the fact some Malaysians define good in that way.

However, is it enough to consider someone is good just by doing that? As for me, I will say no. People always ask how to be good. But before that, they should define what  is 'good'. The term 'good' itself differs from one person to another. A muslim want to be good. Same goes to the Buddhist, Christian, Jews, and also the Atheist. All people want to be good. But according to whom is the definition of good is right?

 An Atheist would say he/she is good by giving money to needy, being a good citizen, respect the elders and everything that is morally good. Is this kind of good is enough to help us to get into Jannah and avoid from getting into Hell. 'No' will I say.

As for me, I would like to agree with the 'good' definition gives by Hlovate in his/her novel. He/she defines 'good' as someone who live his/her life according to Allah's rules . If he/she did it then him/her is considered good. This is only my opinion and my view. As a muslim, this the best definition that I can agree with.

So, let's think about it 'how do I define  good?'

p/s : I am still in the process to be good. Please pray for me and the rest of the ummah.

Movie TIME!!

         Today, most of my friends went to their high school to get recommendations letter from the teachers. ini untuk universiti application.. aku? bila pulak nak balik? ntah la..apa benda un tak buat lagi.. macam tak nak belajaar je aku ni hah..

        Disebabkan my beloved roomie(ain) un balik maktab kat Kulim, aku un lepak2 kat bilik mastura dari pagi smpai petang.. huhu..kitorang duk layan cerita "aku terima nikahnya".. cerita yang sarat dengan kontroversi kerana aksi2 yang melibatkan skinship yang agak over di permulaan dan di pengakhiran cerita. biarlah watak hero n heroin tu bergaduh sampai sudah, at least takde la diorang nak wat adegan yg sarat dengan kontroversi.. 

       And aku tengok cerita 'oh haram'. hmmm.. ni un lagi satu cerita yang bagi aku menarik, ade pengajaran but at the same time buat aku confius. banyak persoalan yang bermain kat fikiran aku waktu tengok cerita tu..yelah,  apakah perasaannya berlakon sebagai watak yang perwatakkan tidak mengikut syariat islam. dan dalam cerita tu watak tu ditegur kerana perbuatannya tu. tak ke konflik kat situ..? tak rase offense ke diorang tu? bukan cerita ni je, bnyak lagi..

       I know it is for the sake of acting, however  i still find it is improper.. niat tak menghalalkan cara,kan? ntahla.. aku takde kat tempat diorang. so takleh complaint lebih2.. may they get the true understanding of islam.. me too..sebab aku un masih belajar..insyaAllah..amiin..

tapi ape yang aku boleh ambik dari cerita tu adalah

• kite lau nak praktis sesuatu perkara kita kena la btul2faham dan hayati benda tu btul2.. 
• pastu, lau nak tegur tu cara perlulah berkhemah.. jangan disebabkan cara dakwah kita yang tak betul tu orang lain makin jauh dari islam..
• jangan fikir kite ni bagus sangat dalam hal agama, kerana kita bakal ujub dan hilang rase nak memperbaiki diri. 
• dan janganlah jadi seorang gadis yang bercita-cita untuk menggudat iman lelaki. tak sepatutnya seorang wanita mempunyai niat begitu.. walupun untuk main2.. bahaya la cik kak oiii...!!nnti memakan diri..
• berguru dengan orang yang ilmunya diiktiraf.. soal selidik dulu latar belakang institusi tersebut, begitu juga dengan guru2nya..

      So far,I never find an islamic movie or drama any better than'Ketika Cinta Bertasbih'.. It just sweet and very meaningful in its own way.. and it did convey the message what is the purpose of marriage and how to find a good spouse.. no need to have any skinship to  make the story seems romantic.. but that is how our people view what is romantic..pray that someday people could change this kind of view and base it on what Islam has said.

p/s: bukan bertujuan nak cakap hal kahwin..just nak share ape yang aku tengok..tu semua hanyalah pndapt semata2..