No one is helpless..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalamualaikum wbt..

How is my iman? How is my heart? How about me after receiving 'that' news last night?  Am I okay? Or just I pretend to be okay? What I'm sure right now, I don’t know how should I feel after that unwanted news.

             At first, I was really angry, disappointed, and guilty. But, when I calmed down and thought about it, I asked myself ' Why should I feel this way. How could I be this weak when I have Allah to help me. And the thing that happening right now also came from HIM. So I should ask HIM to take it back.'

Only with that kind of thought last night I don’t keep whining to people but only Allah. May I stick with that thought until the day I die.

           Once I heard a tazkirah given by Prof. Dr. Muhaya. She said that when we 'talk' with Allah about our problem instead of the people, we are not going to feel as helpless as we do before. It is because Allah heard HIS servant's du'a and take the hopelessness in him/her as he/she keeps having faith in Allah. Not only that, Allah also give us the way out of the problem. That is why no one is helpless as long as he/she keep having faith in Allah. InsyaAllah.

          Another day, when I was so happy to get my TOEFL score, that was when Allah tested me with success. And right now, Allah is testing me with calamity. However, both the 'nikmat' and 'kesusahan' that Allah has given me is actually a loyalty test. Again, I need to ask myself (as a reminder) ' Am I going to be loyal to Allah as I am when I have problems only and forget HIM as HE already take back my problems?' What an insolent servant I'm going to be if I did that.

 

        Ya Allah, please hold my heart tightly as you won't let it go. ALLAH, you without me is still you, but me without you ALLAH is nothing at all. Don’t let me go astray anymore. However when I am, please take back my hand to the right path. The path that you are please with it. InsyaALLAH, aamiin..

~writing this entry while listening to 'Ujian Hidup- IMAM MUDA 1'. Suit the mood~

'adakah mereka itu akan dibiarkan berkata "sesungguhnya aku beriman" sedangkan mereka belum diuji seperti mereka yang terdahulu'