Tidak Mahu Tertapis, Itu Doaku!

Ikhlaskah aku selama menempuh jalan tarbiyah ini..?

Berapa seriusnya aku dalam usaha membangunkan ummah dah mengerjakan dakwah fardiyah di atas muka bumi ini?

Sesungguhnya Allah akan menapis orang2 yang berjuang di jalannya sehingga hanya tinggal mereka yang benar2 ikhlas dalam perjuangan dakwah ini..

Ya Allah, takutnya aku apabila memikirkan bahawa aku akan termasuk orang2 yang ditapis oleh Engkau. Ya Allah berilah aku keikhlasan, kesungguhan,dan keseriusan untuk terus tsiqah atas jalan ni.

Semakin hari, aku semakin takut apabila mengenangkan pekerjaan yg telah aku laksanakan. I'm getting worse, Ya Allah. I know that! Ya Allah forgives me. 

Ya Allah Engkau bantulah hambaMu ini dalam memperbaharui azam dan semangat untuk memperjuangkan Islam pada setiap saat dan ketika. Tidak ingin ya Allah, tidak ingin sekali untuk aku menjadi hipokrit di hadapan manusia, apatah lagi di hadapanMu yang sesungguhnya mengetahui segala gerak geri dan tingkah lakuku.

Anger !

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

I just want to share something that i recently knew about how to manage anger especially to those who are short tempered like me. 

Perhaps most of us are told to take wudhu' whenever we're angry and yup! It is true that wudhu' can calm us down. But have you encounter a situation where you take wudhu' but your anger is not gone? For me, yes, it did happened. If that is the case then we better check our heart purity. 

 We always heard 'preventing is better than cure'. Same goes to anger. It's better to prevent yourselves from getting angry than subsiding the anger as anger can't be easily remove. Preventing our anger starts by taking care of our hearts.

So here I want to share tip on how to manage one anger and it is taken from one of ustaz nouman ali khan's videos. 

I dont rememeber exactly what he said in the video, but here it is what i understand and remember.

It is extracted from verse 36-37 surah ash- shura. 

'So whatever thing you are given, that is only a provision of this world's life, and what is with Allah is better and more lasting for those who believe and rely on their Lord.'

'And those who. shun the great sins and indecencies, and whenever they are angry they forgive.'

Allah says that what He has is better than anything in this world-houses, cars, money, company and etc. Why Allah mention about this? What it has to do with managing one's anger? ( i too wondered when i first watch the video). 

First, Allah wants us to detached our heart from what the temporary dunya offers us so that we dont be stressed out in chasing for wealth or anything that human nowadays look for. What happen when one is stress from failing to have what he/she wants in this life - good grades in test, prestigious job, beautiful wife, a pretty face/body? One will be emotionally unstable, that is for sure. Then, it is easy for one to snap whenever someone says something they dont like to hear especially about themselves. 

So by detaching our heart from this dunya, and believe that what Allah has is greater and better than what we want to have in this Dunya, we will be able to live happily this frantic race of the world. No stress. No sadness.

Second, Allah says about preventing oneself from major sins and any form of indencencies. What is meant by indecencies here is to take care of one's urge to do something bad- look at sexy lady, watch movies (extensively), eat excessively( keep eating although you're already full) and any bad thing that you can think of. I'm sure there is a lot. When we can take care of our small urges (emotion) then it is easier for us to take care of the big ones like anger. 

Then, 'whenever they get angry they forgive'. It means those who believe what Allah has in the akhirah is much much better than what is present in this world (in previous verse), is one who forgives when he's angry. It is not that we can't payback the devil done to us  'And the recompense of evil is punishment like it, but whoever forgives and amends, he shall have his reward from Allah; surely He does not love the unjust. Ash-shuraa:40) To put in simple worlds, if one's main focus is to attain Allah's blessing and believe that what Allah has is much better than this entire world, one can never feel preoccupied and frustrated or angry about stuffs they dont have and people who hurt them. Subhanallah. That's all what i remember and understand from his lecture. For mor elaborative explaination watch his video on youtube - Controlling anger - nouman ali khan

Ps: if there is wrong information on this matter please do correct me :)

Comeback!!

Alhamdulillah..

It has been quite a long time since i last updated my blog. I tried to update my blog using my laptop but i failed. So, here i am using my iPhone to update my blog. 

7 weeks have passed since i started my first semester in University of Minnesota and alhamdulillah everything is just fine. I miss my family once in a while. Mak calls me at least once a week so i'm not feeling homesick most of the time.

As for academic life, not excellent yet insyaAllah boleh lagi survive as long as i dont get any warning letter from MARA at the end of this semester. Please pray for me everyone (who's gonna read this anyway)

I dont have any american friend yet but alhamdulillah i'm still happy as i have awesome friends and seniors from Malaysia here. I would say they are my support system for now. Thanks Allah for letting them to be my friends, my sahabis. Usrah is another support system that i have here. They provide me with spiritual support which is very crucial when living in not-yet-to-be-Muslim society. Even those who live in society which majority is Muslim also need to find spiritual support as there is abundant of negative things in this existing world.

Now, i'm still in the process of 'islah'ing my self to be a better me - better in organizing my time, managing my negative feelings. May Allah eases my path. Aamiin.

Fall view on campus