Raihan sang it!!

Weyh!!! Mana iman??!!

Mana iman??!!

Soalan yang hanya akan keluar bila dah serabut alam.

Like serabut yang sangat-sangat.

Baru tu ingat nak cari mana iman.

Tapi takat mana je yang aku jumpa?

Asyik tenggelam timbul jer.

Memanglah iman tu turun naik,

Tapi apa kejadah kalau naik sejam turun berbulan2 lamanya.

Ironi sangat aku rasa weyh!

Belajar pasal iman dari PASTI smpi SPM,

Tapi bila nak cari iman tu macam tak jumpa2 pulak.

Kekadang rasa macam beriman, sekejap,

Pastu rasa macam mengucap syaitan tengok perangai aku.

Mungkin sebab terasa macam beriman tulah tanda tak cukup iman sebenarnya. *long sigh

Little did I know,

Iman tu bertanda bila you can feel peace in your heart.

You left everything that you love for another love.

You do everything to get that another love.

And when you've done all that, and you feel a sense of peacefulness in your heart, mind and soul,

Maybe that's when iman make a tick in your heart.

You don’t say it, you just feel it.

But little did I know.

Funny enough 'cause I say I wanna be a true muslim but my thoughts and my actions just don’t match at all.

It just I don’t really want it wholeheartedly this whole time.

My love for things and people are greater than my love for Him.

That is when Raihan's song echoes through my earphones

Tanpamu iman bagaimanalah

Merasa diri hamba padanya

Tanpamu iman bagaimanalah

Menjadi hamba Allah yang bertaqwa.

*I keep playing it as a background music while doing 'this'

Conclusion: Iman just not visited me this whole time. Or it did but I made no room for it. And I strongly believe the latter is the most appropriate conclusion.

BIG QUESTION: So, mana nak mula cari??? Or paling tepat mana nak cari kekuatan nak cari iman? Sebab rasanya jalan tu dah terang. Tapi nak melangkah tu….sampai sekarang tak pernah jadi.