the answer always lie in your heart..

asking where is ikhlas,, how to find ikhlas..

i think i found the answer to my questions.
astaghfirullahal'azim..and alhamdulillah..
thank you Allah for showing what I've been searching for..
Ya Allah, now i ask you to give me strength to act upon the answers you give me..

ya Allah, my heart is so dirty and filthy..
and it makes my entire being dirty too..
too many jahiliyyah, too many bad behaviors,
it's all because of my unclean heart..

this not only make it hard for me to find ikhlas,
but other things too..
how could i find and understand what is SABAR in this state of heart..
too dirty..
the HAQ and BATIL will never come together..
never ever..

Ya Allah, again, i seek for your help, give me strength to act upon the answers you've given me..
Ya Allah, i am too weak for a servant of you.. forgive me..lend me some strength ya Allah to make the changes that I should do to find you and to win your pleasure.. insyaAllah, amiin..